수요일, 1월 10, 2007
Disillusioned
Feeling: Ultimately sianI am actually blogging this in the sci lib. N i really dunno what to say anymore.
V finally expressed her disdain for me yesterday verbally n so now she has finally agreed to let me do my own experiment.
Should i be happy?
I dunno.
I mean i know i want to be independent n give it a try since she cant get results either n i cant be waiting for her all the time.
But the thing is all along she has been doing most of the stuff n truth to be told, i din even learn much til now. So even if she agrees to let me do it myself, does she mean she wants to wash her hands off what i do totally or can i still ask her if i have doubts?
N u know how i dread asking her anything cos she obviously dun like to explain to me.
Den how????
There is like no lab tech or anyone working in our lab that i can ask too. So either i do my expt blindly or else i have to be thickskinned n ask her again.
Tell me which is the better option pls.
Aish. Maybe i shld just ask her straight in the face. Do u actually mind teaching me? IF yes, den maybe i can write to my prof n ask him if i can be under another phd student since there are like 2 more available in the lab. I mean this cant go on infinitely right?
Hello..i paid sch fees siah.
Obviously i want to learn things or else why do i pay so much to be here suffering?
N i dun even wish to bring in another issue. Something about why me n angel are the ONLY supposed outcasts in the lab. Anyone who wishes to know, do PM me. Or else, i think u all will be able to guess too. Unfair lar..
N the stupid drugs module that is giving me a headache too. For christ's sake, just open more vacancies! Whats the problem...hello again this is my last semester, n this is my core module i.e. without this module, i CANNOT graduate. Period.
Everything is going so wrong recently.
Stupid.
How many times must i say that i regret continuing with my hons? Anything else seems so much better than my life here now. N i mean even the prospect of working at what..macs? Really lor..
I cant help but harbour thots of quitting school again.....
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또 울어버렸다.. @ 12:05 PM